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• when we meet someone & fall in love, we have a sense that the   universe is on our side..and yet if something goes wrong, there is nothing left.
• life moves very fast. it rushes ys from heaven to hell in a matter if seconds.
• my aim is to understand love. i know how alive i felt when i was in love & i know that everythinh i have now however interesting it might seem. doesn’t really excite me.
• if i must be faitful to someone or something then i have to first of all, to be faithful to myself. if im looking for true love, i first have to get the mediocre love out of my system.
• anyone who has lost something they thought was theirs forever finally comes to realize that nothing really belongs to them. & if nothing belongs to me, then there’s no point wasting my time looking after things that aren’t mine. its best to live as if today were the first (last) day of my life.
• i can choose either to be a victim of the world or an adventurer in search of treasure. it’s all a question of how i view my life.
• before i die, i want to fight for life. & if i can walk on my own, i can go wherever i like.
• the roller coaster is my life. life is a fast, dizzying game; life is a parachute jump: it’s taking chances, falling over and getting up again; it’s mountaineering, it’s wanting to get to the very top of yourself & to feel angry & dissatisfied when you don’t manage it.
• in the search of happiness we are all equal.
• i didn’t ask to be born, i’ve never found anyone to love me, i’ve always made the wrong decisions - now im letting life decide for me.
• im not a body with a soul; im a soul that has a visible part called the body. my soul didn’t say anything to me, didn’t criticize me or feel sorry for me, it merely watched me. I realized why this was happening; it’s been such a long time since i thought about love or anything called love. it seems to be running away from me, as if it wasn’t important anymore & i didn’t feel welcome.  but if i don’t think about love, i will be nothing.
• i need to write about love. i need to think & think &, i need to write & write about love - otherwise, my soul won’t survive.
• men are very strange. they can beat you up, shout at you, threaten you & yet they’re scared to death of women really. Perhaps not the woman they married, but there’s always one woman who frightens them & forces them to submit to her caprices. even if it’s their own mother.
• all my life i thought of love as some kind of voluntary enslavement. well that’s a lie; freedom only exists when love is present. the person who gives him or herself wholly, the person who feels freest, is the person who loves most wholeheartedly. & the person who loves wholeheartedly feels free.
• in love no one can harm anyone else; we are each of us responsible for our own feelings & cannot blame someone esle for what we feel. it hurts when i lost the man i fell in love with. now, through i am convinced that no one loses anyone, because no one owns anyone. that is the true experience of freedom; having the most important thing in th world without owning it.
• passion sends us signals that guides us through our lives & its up to us to interpret those signs.
• the great aim of every human being is to understand the meaning of total love. love is not to be found in someone else, but in ourselves. we simply awaken it. but in order to do that, we need the other person. the universe only makes sense when we have someone to share our feelings with.
• profound desire, true desire is the desire to be close to someone. from that point onwards, they change, the man and the woman come into play, but what happens before the attraction the brought them together is impossible to explain. it is untouched desire in it’s purest state.
• really important meetings are planned by the souls long before the bodies see each other.
• everyone knows how to love because we are all born with that gift. some people have a natural talent for it, but the majority of us have to re-learn, have to remember how to love without exception, needs to burn on the bonfire of past emotions, to relieve certain joys and griefs, certain ups and downs, until they can see the connecting threads behind each encounter.
• human beings weren’t made solely to go in search of wisdom but also to plought the land, wait for rain, plant the wheat, harvest the grain and made the bread.
• desire is not what you see but what you imagined.

everyday your face fills my mind

my heart is longing to be close

and my hand is wanting to hold yours..

you are my constant companion the one that may

not be physically present all the time but someone

that conquers my soul since the moment we’ve meet.

i love you not only because i love you

it is because of what i am when i am with you

i become a better me and striving more to be that

someone whom you could be with in mastering

our individual imperfections for this lifetime.

you are my now, you are my present

you are the reason why everyday i wake up

with smile in my face and love in my heart

i could never thank you enough for loving me..

he wrote a  blog about trudy

one of his  closest gurl friends

it made me sad

i couldnt take  if off my mind

maybe  im  jealous?..i dont know

i  dont  have the  right to be jealous

its a relief though coz now

i realized im still capable of jealousy

but what good would it do?

a couple of years debate

between  my heart and  mind

is not enough to come up with a verdict

jealousy only means one thing

and im not sure im ready to gamble again

everytime  someone gets too close

i make sure i pull myself out in time

knowing that when i become emotionally dependent

ill be weak  and totally vulnerable

‘guess i pulled out myself too late now

to get affected by a simple write-up

i dont like  this

this is not good

i hate this feeling

its making me shit scared…

I was raised to be a good daughter

          ..I managed to be one

I was so opinionated

          ..It always irritates mom

I was my father’s favorite

          ..I used to kick my older brother’s butt

I became an older sister

          ..I end up spoiling my younger brother

I used to act like a lesbian

          ..I fooled everyone around me

I was in athletics

          ..It was one of my greatest moments

I had my share of medals and awards

          ..I never passed the “mushy” division

I once thought love has found me

          ..It was just a make believe

I wanted to be sane

          ..I’m still a work in process

I’ll always be happy

          ..is the choice I made

I will never be what I’m not

          ..is my standing vow

I could only give what I have

          ..is my guiding principle

I live for the present

          ..for tomorrow will take care of itself!!

ITNKEAACPEVRMHRDEEAWOSRFBHVOYUIEOBCL

                                                                                    - zinx-

gone through all my posts here and I’ve realized I made a
pattern…was on diversion when I got addicted in the www… left a lil time for
myself to rest… got suspended for a day at work due to tardiness…being loathed
by co-workers for my fluctuating attitude… at some point thought life is such a
f***in misery and I was suffering a f***in disease!! ..tsk..tsk… haha…that was no
good!!

was in such a  catastrophic
phase when the immortals intervene…my college friends were back… friday night-outs
were a knocked out phenomenon… found a best friend who totally understood the condition I was into since he was also
contaminated once with a love frost… was able to spend more time with my family
and gurl bonding with my cousins.. 

then I am hurting no more… haha!… the realization of it
sends shivers to my spine… once I thought I’ll die of pain… now it was a
fallacy…

TODAY..

Life is cool…no
angst only gratefulness to the ONE
up high!

>>>take things easy oryt peepzzz??!!..enjoy..unwind..have fun!!>> zinx

TAKE LIFE EASY

Heard the birds hum

Felt the soft breeze

It’s early morning

I’m waking up

To a new beginning

Life is a canvass –

So today is as good as

Any to make new sketches

It may just be a line or a few strokes

But it leads to the real portrait

I’m taking it easy

I’m not in a hurry

It’s true that life is short

But I’m entitled to enjoy the show

Otherwise life is not worth living at all

Be cool with life baby

Do what you can do today

Tomorrow will be another day

Just be sure you’re contented with

What you’ve accomplished for now

I’m taking it easy

I’m not in a hurry

It’s true that life is short

But I’m entitled to enjoy the show

Otherwise life is not worth living at all

Some people live their lifetime

Not enjoying the life they are given

So I’m taking it easy

I’m not in a hurry

It’s true that life is short

But I’m entitled to enjoy the show

Otherwise life is not worth living at all

>>> guys i’ve written this earlier as a poem..but hmm im thinking of making it a song. i juz couldnt put the right melody to it..so need sum help!!@@ juz drop me a message!:)<<<

MY WORLD OF PRETENSION

I haven’t been to myself lately

For I’m lost in my world of pretension

I’m running in circles

But this is a much better way

Than never to have you near me again

I could have just told you straight

Of the feeling that I’ve kept for too long

But I’m scared that instead of having you

You’ll opt to leave me

That’s gonna be my greatest sorrow

That’s gonna be my greatest pain

I better hide in my own world…

Where I can love you with my all

Where I can hold you and touch you

Where I can make believe you love me too

And you’re all mine

We shared a bond as friends

I may want to bring it on another plane

But if I’m the only one wanting it

Then it’s as good as nuthin

You know when I’m being moody

You can read me when I’ve problems

Once you’ve asked me what’s bugging me

That’s when I wanted to burst and tell you

But what if you’re not feeling the same way

That’s gonna be my greatest sorrow

That’s gonna be my greatest pain

I better hide in my own world…

Where I can love you with my all

Where I can hold you and touch you

Where I can make believe you love me too

And you’re all mine

i wanted to create another write-up..i wanted to say what’z on ma mind..but what the heck..nuthin really is on ma mind ryt now than thinking of sumthing to write..buahahaha!!!..now this is exactly the downside when you felt nuthin at all..but hmmm it feels ryt…i think i’m contented and happy at the moment..hehe..now isn’t that great?!!>>.. wooooo hooooooooo…!! <hope this will not last only for an hour!!>..whaaaaaaaaaaaahhh…!!

sssshhh..did i tell you that i’ve this internet friend..that we treat each other as bezzfrenzz and we chat everyday and we kind of really love each other’s company?..hehehe..hey hey..i’m not in love with him..it’s just that he’s in love with me..whaaattt??..hehehe…but then its gonna be like.."THIs GuY’S iN LovE wiTh YOu PaRE!!" BUahahaHAHa!! coz you see i declared maself a lesbian(after the turmoils i’ve been through with ma x-men suckers) and he’s GaYYYY (after i declared im a lesbian..he declared he’s an adam-turned-eve)..omg yaaaaaaaayyyy!!!..buahahahahaha….kaka will LOL when she reads this..jejejeje..hmmm ka?..oryt, go on…! you can sing "perfect combination..na na la la lala"…hahahahaha…!!!..nahh..we’re better off as bezzyy!!..:P

enwez..i’m excited for next week..!!..geeesshh..i’ll be starting the new episode of zinx next level school life adventurezz(hopefully not as cartoon thingy as dora)..hehe..and im hoping against hope ma new hummiez are cool and psycho’z..that way i’ll be able to keep track with ma new year’s "october" resolution to be nice and be nice..hahaha!!..

uh uh now is this for real???..past 3:00 a.m…early for me to go to sleep i must stay up for more hours to sleep a lil late..jejeje..time flies like mosquitos!! oh myyy..i’m bursting with laughter!!..buahahahhahaha..

hmmm yes??? el necessario for me to sleep now? no se preocupe me siguen siendo yo (don’t worry, i’m still me!)de nada! goooddnnessss!!juz what the hell am i talkin?..hmm don’t mind much..im juz like this..no major brain disruption..juz a total blackout!!!

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hey here are those im trying to forward to you earlier. oh my i dunno what happened and my mood juz zoomed down. as in really down..sensitivity have a knack of pulling me down at times. haha..

maybe some sagittarians (like me) really were born confused and lacked the last turn of the brain nails for it to function normally.

im complicated..im worst. i cry and laugh without reasons. i feel the pain other people are experiencing. when im happy..i feel happy..and feel the emptiness right after..i’m restless. im twisted and sometimes im a non-feeling entity.

now im wondering if bitches really are puzzles.

– i hate it when two people love each other too much and waste the opportunity to love each other just because of some stupidity juz like in the story. i’ve loved too much once but i’ve never experienced bein loved in return–why are they wasting theirs?–

I

was traveling last night, after a cool day at the office (was done with ma audit skedz in a lil time that it leaves me with so much time solving puzzles in the box world)…,out of nowhere a sudden pang of emotion hits me…i remembered someone…someone that i used to build ma world and dreams around with…someone that i used to love so deep and lost…someone who is stained on me…i wonder if this has to do with havin’ a twisted mind…one time was sure was completely done with all these…now i’m not a bit sure at all.

LOVE

they say love is a very intricate word…i’d say lovers made it obscure. how can you love and hurt as much the one you love?… you love me but seek sexual pleasures in the arms of someone else..is love not enough to hold on your manhood until the one you love is ready to give her all? does loving necessitate the act just to prove how deep one love is?

to YOU

you know i never would have wanted to give up on our dreams… to give up on us…to give up a part of me…but i deemed it necessary before our relationship could poison us both. it was not healthy anymore and i couldn’t trust you with my all again. it was wasted and i’m more than sorry that it was all over until now. i must say the break-up was not entirely your fault…i had my share of it too.  i was sorry for my shortcomings and i know you were sorry too.

forgive me if i kept hurting from all that had happened… i promised to be strong but there are times that I just feel too weak…as for you, i wanted you to be happy… if you love someone new now please be faithful enough to her. keep the lessons learned from our past as I do…take good care of yourself… i’ll always care for you.

I SWEAR THAT’S TRUE..

you’re stained on me……..